No sore spot; nothing personal. What you replied with only goes to show that you understand nothing as far as I am concerned, and have just words to use, confirming the very point that was made about those who know and those who don’t. I think Dr C called them viables and non-viables.

The symptoms you describe are of your personal mental battle of the War. It seems you are perhaps succumbing to the Madness which affects non-viable minds, precisely as Dr C wrote many times. Those who truly appreciate the Truth of what is happening rejoice at the thought of correction of this abomination with all its suffering and misery. Obviously you are not one of them and can only feel the Terror of coming events rather than the Joy of Liberation from Darkness.
Heavy? Of course it is. What could be more so than one’s ultimate existential viability. That is what Dr C writes about. And that, in reality, is what you are objecting to, even as you try to camouflage your comments with the flavour of jest.