I have received many emails asking questions and offering advice, as I take this trip down cancer highway. I read all of them and look at all the alterative therapy¡¯s for cancer. Keep sending them. The biggest things I am asked in the emails in one way or another , to paraphrase is :

1Why did you write your journal?

2 Why did you decide to go public with your journal?.

3 Why Cannabis and not another alterative cure?

Those are the question I will try to explain to you in this posting.

When I was first misdiagnosed 3 Days after Christmas 2013 and then diagnosed with MDS on Jan 14 2014, I had no intention to write about it or share my illness with anyone but family and close friends.

After the first 5 day cycle of chemo I got very sick and came close to dying as I laid in the hospital I began to think about my Life and my disease and decided I would write a journal for my Kids and to help me deal mentally about what I was facing. I decided that I had to write it raw and from the heart and just put it out there even if it made me look bad ,crazy or strange. I would just write the whole truth, wherever my thought and the story took me. As it turns out I am writing one journal for myself and public consumption and have had long talks with my children and told them ,ask me anything about my life and I will tell you 100% of the truth good bad or ugly.

After I wrote Part I read it over several times and shared it with a few close friends. whom all as it turned out thought I wrote just to them. It having that effect on my close friends¡¯ I just felt I should publish it ,and if it helped another person going through MDS or other forms or cancer that¡¯s great or if it just causes one person to go visit there aging parents or grandparents or visit the local nursing home, all the better.
As to why I chose cannabis oil over other alterative cancer treatments. I did research a few years ago on cancer treatments when my younger sister came down with colon cancer and that research kept leading me to cannabis. My sister of course thought marijuana was an evil drug and only drug addicts smoked and she wanted nothing to do with it.

Most of the alterative treatments I found were built around diets that only a rich man with a personnel shopper and a chef could afford to strictly follow , or I found it very skeptical as to there working, And there were others I just would just not do .

So when I did the research again for my self, I started were I left off a few Years ago but I dug a lot deeper into the medical report from around the world. While there is no long term medical trials or peer reviews on cannabis or its healing property¡¯s., All of the reports I found says there were signs of shrinking tumors from brain tumors to breast tumors and many other tumor sites. I also read prilimary reports of it curing leukemia in several instances. I also discovered that the US Dept of health held patents on cannabis all of this combined, convince me that I would fight my cancer with cannabis oil .I looked at it as my own clinical trial, If it works fantastic, if it doesn¡¯t I have lost nothing as the medical profession has no cure for MDS and I was going to die from it in a year or 2 max anyway. I still feel that way today. Cure me or kill me nothing lost nothing gain or just possibly everything gained for me and many others.

I thank you for your support and I will continue to write 100% of the truth as this saga goes on and I will be as candid about it as humanly possible.

I have had an interesting life from my own major battles with the IRS, (book was written about that in 2000) ,Defending myself in court and being acquitted , battling and winning against the largest privately owned trucking company in the United states to pay $7.2 million in back pay to 1400 owner operators, I spent 2 months at the home of Ed and Elaine Browns home as they held off the US Marshalls, to having my own business and a great family. I had the toys and most of the trimming during my 65 years. Maybe this journal gives a little back who knows. Believe it my kids have had some tough questions for me and I love it.