From Rayelan:
I received this email from Barrie Konicov, the author of numerous books and tapes on the IRS and self discovery. Barrie seems to have walked a similar path to the one I have walked. At the moment, Barrie is being sued by the IRS. He will defend himself using the "person" versus "natural person" defense. If he wins, his case could set a precedent and free ALL of us from the oppressive boot of the IRS. If he loses, he could spend 10 years in prison.
The tone of the following email is not his usual upbeat style, which makes me think that maybe he and I are feeling something... I know not what... that is making both of us wonder why we are doing this.
"I think everyone who has ever made a decision to make a difference, sometime or other comes to the point where they think no one really gives a damn. Today, I am at that point."
This sentence could have been written by me today! Here is the rest of what Barrie wrote. I wonder how many other people who are trying to make a difference, like Barrie and I are doing, are feeling this way?
Sunday, May 20, 2001
Greetings,
Right now, I don’t feel too good. No, I am not physically sick. That’s not it. I am sick in my heart. I don’t want you to answer this letter, nor do I want you to be concerned. I only want to write you what is in my heart. I want to open up a little more, and share things that are bothering me. I don’t mean to burden you with my problems. Therefore, if you want, simply hit the delete button now.
I think everyone who has ever made a decision to make a difference, sometime or other comes to the point where they think no one really gives a damn. Today, I am at that point. Yet, I know there are thousands of you who desperately want to make a difference, to take a stand, to stop the pain and suffering. I also know that the vast majority of the people are too under the influence to even know there is a problem, beyond the pain that they endure daily as they live their lives.
Today I am thinking this thought, "After I win will it make a difference?’ Who will know and how will it change their lives? In my mind today, it is as if I am throwing a party and what if no one shows up?
I am not so stupid to think that no one is going to show up. But what if, just if, after I have won my case nothing changes. What then. What about me. Let me tell you this about me. I will go on, but I will not be the same. Can you blame me? Here I am, betting ten years of my personal freedom that I can change the mind of a hand picked jury that, even before the trial begins, will be convinced that I am guilty. What insanity. Bingo, now what are you going to do differently after I win?
After I win I am going to take 3 days, 72 hours, with my wife, alone and in solitude. I am going inside and I am going to talk to God. Afterwards, I will become available. When I reappear in your life, if you have not listened to the voice of God, by going inside, nothing will change, and this act on my part will be only for me. After all, there is only one of us here, and, in doing it for me, I am doing it at for all.
And now the voice in my head wants to talk to you.
I have caused it to be written, "Most people believe in God, they just don’t believe in a God who believes in them…
"Communion with God, by Neale Donald Walsch.
I am not a God that is separated from you, I am not a God that asks anything of you, I need none of your prayers or groveling. I am the God who birthed you from me, and being me is who you are. You have created separation to experience me as you, upon your return to me, but you have never left me, for after all where would you go? There is only me. I am the voice, the feeling, the thought you now think, as you read these words. I am your friend…
Barrie Konicov
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