First I would like to commend you on your courageous and insightful post. I mean this sincerely. You identified a childhood conditioning experience which you described as having a present impact on your ability to reason and express yourself in very specific circumstances, and that is quite significant.

I would estimate perhaps millions have shared your conditioning experience and so respond to scriptures by effectively "zoning out".

This to me is truly frightening. That effect sounds like the alpha wave pattern yielded in mind control subjects. I am not trying to over dramatize your personal experience, but instead validating the potential negative consequences of such conditioning events in general rendered to the population at large.

I wonder if there is anything else in your life experiences which yields that degree of control over your processes.

I personally wonder as well who might have masterminded such a tragic and pervasive societal conditioning, as well as what they might have to gain by such. This is from whence I hail.

What are they hiding? Furthermore, what is hidden from your view by such a reaction?

Perhaps the masterminds are the ones that you refer to as professing to be Xn but are not. But who/what's behind their curtain?

I apologize if I have been too personal. This is the way my mind works, and I am trying to contribute to your request for dialogue.