A post submitted by CGI member Morgan.

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Who's had an NDE:

We are forever. Here, there, what ever. Here sucks. Assuming most reading this have read of other NDEs, a lot of them don't wanna leave the Otherside. Yet they are persuaded by being reminded of a self-imposed obligation to those still here. I've only got ONE of those obligations left, and I REFUSE to take on any more.

I can't stand this place. I don't owe it ANYTHING. I think I've given it enough in the past, and for the rest of my sojourn this place can go to Hell on a garbage scow. I have nothing vested in it, and I QUIT, barring putting obnoxious posts on various forums; but I consider waking people up in the most insulting ways possible entertainment, so. . .

I signed up for this despite warnings that I didn't have a good track record down here and that I'd be miserable. Like a fool, I ignored those warnings, thank you, my STOOPID EGO! I had a chip on my shoulder that is now gone, but I'm still here to the end of the contract. . .under protest. We all allegedly signed up for this from what I've read. I suppose it's to see the end of the era, and then we can move forward as opposed to staying in this stupid mortal flotsam nursery school for the gazillionth recycled life.

Under protest! Hence I am going to spend the rest of my sojourn being as useless as possible to all that is the system, like I've been doing. Spending all the time I can in my nose cave, barring my job, shopping, credit union, and moderate length walks around the hood once or twice a week with my nose-poo on a day off.

I kinda like the 'Lay Down Flat' (Tang Ping) and 'Let It Rot' (Bai Lan) movements of China. Do the minimum you have to do.

How much faster can this disgusting era be destroyed if more took that attitude? Hey! The place is doomed anyway. Why prolong the agony?

As for those here to rebuild. . .I'm not even gonna bother to ask why. After all, no matter how good it gets here, it's still got its limitations compared to the Otherside. Everyone obviously has different priorities, and some of those priorities make me want nothing to do with those of those priorities. Their lives are their problem, and and I'm not going to take them on. Been there, bought the T-shirt, and threw it into the fire a few years back.

HOKA HEY! But I still gotta wait, dammit.