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Thomas Trost Braun

INTRODUCTION

Once upon a time in the beginning,” I GOD, The Mysterious-One, decided to create something....anything. Man was I bored. I looked around and there was nothing....but ME. And I said to my holy-self, “This sucks!”

So I started experimenting...and dang, here we are, 2016, and.... I have not quit; still going strong, six days a week; taking off Sundays to worship myself. “Holy ME.”

Before I began creating I decided to try and understand what I AM. It was hard because I did not have anything to compare myself to (being the one and only) but then...when I looked around and saw nothing (no forms, just a void) while realizing I was something, well...”BINGO!” opposites and contrast already existed, and I didn’t do it. Maybe someone beat me here.

I knew I was something, a something hanging out in a vast no thing. I called the no thing, space. After that realization things got harder because I started thinking,‘”Where did I come from; why am I here, where am I going; what’s my purpose; when did I become ME, and the big one, can I die, and if so, will I really be dead or will my consciousness continue?” See what I mean by, “it got harder.” And the bad news was, none of those questions could answer, what AM I? So I started meditating.

I know some people believe I’ve always existed, but do me a favor, explain that to me. Always existed? Really? Maybe you know something I don’t–which would be weird because...well....I’m God).

One of the first things I pondered and meditated upon was, “How come I can ponder and meditate?” And then, “Where do words and their meanings come from?” Of course nowadays there’s an excellent quote, “Know thyself,” but back then, at the predawn of beginning, I wasn’t privy to that saying, but being God and all, I figured it out. Anyway, to the first question, “How come I can ponder and meditate?” and when I got the answer, I asked, “Who is this really?”

Now when I say, “There was nothing but me,” that’s not quite true, because as soon I realized there was ME, I wondered where ME was. Having concluded that ME was in space, I wondered if ME came first or space came first. The question, “Which came first?” is still argued about today because....well....because nobody knows. Maybe ME and space are the same thing and we popped into existence at the same time. Anyway....by now you can imagine the dilemma I was in, being the supreme know-it-all.

Now I don’t want to belittle my own existence, but I’m not inclined to empty assumptions and unanswered questions. I’m not into belief and faith since they answer nothing, but I use them for what they are, tools....tools to understand things, to search for truth. They most certainly are not substitutes for truth, well....unless you’re a religious couch potato (I know...your books and preachers push belief and faith, but then they also push you to help them have the lifestyle of the rich, the powerful and the famous....so give me a break.

Ok....if by now I haven’t confused you enough you haven’t been paying attention, so let me clarify: I’m going to take you down the rabbit hole, not every rabbit hole, but the BIG ONE, the one that answers the questions upmost in your mind, like, “What the hell is going on.... REALLY?” (and put this in your mind, “Ignorant-reverence is less appreciated by ME than studious-irreverence, because contrary to popular misunderstanding I have a sense of humor which I proved when I created you in my own image, after my likeness, which if that was the case, it would be the biggest joke of all (OK....don’t get upset....we’ll cover that too (my God,....the things you’ve got to unlearn to learn the truth. Maybe this would be a good time to take a smoke break and grab a cup of coffee, and don’t forget to come back....this is just the beginning).

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