It's been an eventful 22 years... As I think about it, I quickly change the picture and think about something else.

The early years were hell. I never knew if Gunther was dead or alive until I heard his voice.

There were so many attempts on my life that I didn't know if the next hour would be the end of me.

If it had not been for Gunther's SEALs RMN could never have started. His SEALS kept me alive at the cost of one SEAL that I know was killed by the FBI.

I keep saying I'm going to write a book, but remembering those years is something that is still too painful.

RMN was started to continue exposing corruption... especially that of our government...

I have had to sacrifice a lot of things that I would rather spend money on... like a vacation to somewhere warm and beautiful.

I hate having to continually scrimp with money and beg our readers to fill up the financial widget.

I wish that I had a rich benefactor... or that I was rich and didn't need to ask readers for money. But I guess there is some kind of lesson for me regarding never having enough money for all the bills. I sure wish I knew what the lesson was so I could learn it and quit going through these money lessons that repeat every month.

I may have started RMN, but since its been on the internet, it has developed a life of its own... a very big and strong life. I have noticed that when bill collectors or people calling to collect money that I owe someone, learn that I own a news magazine, they entire demeanor changes and they can't do enough for me.

It's been 22 long years... Two husbands have died, my mother died, my golden retriever died... but life continues for me... and I learned that death is just a part of life, and I look forward to all the good things that continually come my way.

I want to thank Hobie, and Susoni (RumorMail) for all the work they do behind the scenes to keep RMN running smoothly.

I want to thank all my readers, especially the ones who fill up the donation wizard each month... without them I would have to find a job to support my habit... aka RMN.

And I want to thank all the RMN Agents... without them, there could be no RMN. I was lucky to find people whose vision of RMN is the same as mine.

If I have failed to thank someone... please know that I do appreciate what you do for RMN.

Happy Birthday RMN...

Rayelan Allan,
Publisher, RMNews