I am writing this as I have become somewhat depressed that people seem to reawaken fantasies about me be an agent of British intelligence whenever I post something.

I am not able to post a lot because I am ill and typing things up is a real struggle most of the time. Been distracted for the past few weeks with an outrageously long and detailed form that I had to fill in to maintain receiving a small amount of disabilty benefit, a form which the government which I supposedly love so much has foistered upon me along with a harsh deadline for completing it. That, with the help of my family, is thankfully out of the way. I had an article on Satanism that I wanted to post and waited until I saw someone had posted something on the subject (a very interesting piece on Satanists being recruited as CIA assassins) before I scanned it in, OCR-ed it and posted it. I did not initiate the topic of Satanism, although I have a relatively long piece I have managed to write myself on the subject which I am slowly typing up.

I can only think that some circles of the intelligence services are not comfortable with discussions regarding Satanism and Black Magic. The whole 'Icke saga' seemed to me to be interwoven with my posts on the Jesuits and on 'ahrimanic inspiration'. I too suffered unusual problems with my email services during that saga and had my computer hacked into. I believe that if you offend the Jesuits you make an enemy for life, and they are the backward power which are preventing a spiritual renaissance. And they stay hidden by remotely influencing the wills of others, so the source of the machinations is rarely suspected.

What saddens me is that we are all fighting the same battle against the same enemies. I simply happen to approach it from the spiritual aspects of what I perceive to be going on, whilst others seek to expose the details of the intrigues and corrupt acts which are carried out on the physical plane. My being is so constituted at the moment that writing and thinking and experiencing the spiritual is relatively easy for me late at night, whilst my 'day consciousness' struggles with juggling the manifold facts regarding the various conspiracies which are being enacted before our eyes. My mind is so constituted as the result of the illness that I find it hard to combine separate ideas regarding physical events, my short term memory of such details is quite appaling. When I write at night the ideas about the spiritual aspects of things seem to flow in a coherent stream through me.

My problems in retrospect seem to stem to a certain extent from discussions of satanism and the like. Before I was ill I was in my final year at one of the top universities in England and I was doing a course about the witchcrazes of early modern Europe and which compared these to modern day 'hysterias'. The climax, and thus the intent of the course, how it was justified as relevant, basically consisted of discrediting the phenomenon of Satanic Ritual Abuse and indocrinating the students with ideas such as 'false memory syndrome'. My essays began from the premiss that witchcraft did exist and I tried to fathom out what was going on by taking the spiritual aspect, and the existence of the black arts in general, seriously. The lecturer taking the course left before the end of the easter term and she brought in someone else to mark the essays, who I never met. It coincided with when I fell ill, which began with an apparant measles infection. (I remember reading how Blavatsky was subject to a 'spiritual imprisonment' by certain secret orders when they felt she was making too much information public knowledge)

After a while I was referred to a hospital specialist, and the only treatment he recommended was a specific set of meditation tapes, produced by a 'new age' company, and written by a person (if I remember correctly) with the same not partcularly common surname as the doctor. Recently I saw the hospital on a list of three hospitals in the UK associated with mind control experiments. And the 2 phrases which stuck in my mind from my last encounter with this doctor (he has gone on a sabbatical to Saudi Arabia for a year) were 'HANG on in there' and 'there is light at the end of the tunnel' - which could be the MK way of saying to the subconscious mind 'you would be better off if you killed yourself' (the tunnel with a light at the end being the common denominator in many near death experiences). Now another hospital specialist has recommended that I undergo Cognitive Behaviour Therapy and I read a quote regarding it in a mainstream publication that the person felt like they were trying to change her personality.

Finally, I confess that I am not particularly interested in the royal family. The only one who might yield some power at the moment, in my opinion, is Prince Phillip. As for the others I don't know. The 'royal rumor' which I have read elsewhere which I don't think has appeared on this forum is that Prince Harry (the third in line to the British throne) is not the son of Prince Charles, but the product of Diana's affair with James Hewitt. Harry does not resemble the other royals, but does seem to bear some facial resemblance to Hewitt. Were William to die before he could produce offspring, then Harry would be almost certain to become king one day. Were this rumor to become widespread at that point, then the monarchy could possibly be toppled. Maybe this is why there is an effort to link William to as many eligible women as possible.