I would like to thank friend Ben ---
for always giving point & counter-point:
What Is Wrong Inside?
by Windstill.
"I know what is wrong: it is learning about unconditional love, and how a part of me has trouble accepting it. There is so much in my past I would like to go back to, just for it to balance, and it is left in unbalanced ways sitting like a weight in my subconscious.
I am a forward moving person, peering at the possibilities before deciding which one I wish to sample today. It is learning to balance dreams and reality, while watching the past. Any of my dreams are now do-able in my mind, and I have learned that the Dreamtime is the real time. I enter my Dreamtime every moment of the day, looking at all the possibilities facing me in my moment, and deciding which path I wish to move towards at this point in my life.
There is no past for me to turn back to any more, as the point of no return seems to have been reached long ago. Trying to go back to fix things brings ‘the who’ that I am to a complete stop. I don’t get creative with my writing, and my macro gaze is made to look into micro detail, and sometimes that balance is necessary. But that driving male part that is set on action and aliveness for making whatever dream come true is brought to a halt looking back. I desire at this time for what is within the realm of my reality, to bring the joy and love I have for this life lived, giving it the gusto in my action. I also try to give it the balance it so much desires. Hence I can only look back so much, which is not much for the person that I am.
Any cutting edge takes balance between the future and this moment in pastoral conscious input from me, so that the mortal mind can absorb so much, but I am clinging to reality through the imagery it gives me on so many levels, that I now appreciate this reality so much. It is the foundation that my forever is built on with love plating, so am now concentrating on the movie of life I am creating.
How will I play it differently when I come back and try it again, along a different time-line next time round? If I do this enough, I think it quite possible in the days to come, that we will find ourselves bi-located into our multi-verse. Can I handle the bigger ‘Me’ that I then find? So in many ways, it is an observing of the way I am, what moves me, what stops me, where issues are that when I go forward, the rear is exposed. ‘The Paradoxes’; yet the balance point being between the two paradoxes demands to be resolved and noted. So how high was the colour indigo anyway?
Do I need to go into the next dimension to see the path?
So I make it now, and the forever goes from my gaze, with full love for whatever is created in this life. If we can come back and try out different time-lines, then perhaps the magic is about to break, and if that begins to happen for people, (and if it surely does,) and exponential sacred experiences bring true magic back again, then with such loss of control to true freedom felt by all, what is going to be the outcome? It would be best to try and work out the mechanics of how things should be done ahead of time in the typical male way.
Women know it instinctively inside themselves. But the men just have to work it out the hard way. The 'Painter and the Paint'; the ‘Animus and the Anima’; the ‘Yin and the Yang’; all are polarities that seek our attention. And the Tao beyond it All, that both is and isn’t, and maybe neither, where is the Love?
Like the Tao, it is like a koan, that if someone tried to define it then it is limited. By speaking koan's sometimes, the picture is given. They can balance out both side. Loving hate; or does it sound better hate loving? Both need each other to come into right perspective, one being only half of the story.
The Beloved is the combination of them both, and what a joyful loving place that can be! That depends on what I feed my dream by where my attention is. While not denying the feelings of some of the worst results that are happening around me, (my thoughts jump to the fact that at least they designed a really soft, three ply toilet paper, and am told, heated and washing toilets in Japan) the worst of polarities can be humorous indeed even if it is an arse-hole here or there!
The Universe has a sense of Humour, and Death can be that. That’s the start of the next game that just might intersect this moment, and we can never know which moment that will be.
So each moment is a trial run to me as to what I will create on a continuing basis in Love for the movie to just continue beyond death! Controlling our reality ABSOLUTELY demands that I begin to try what is being said, hence my dreams taking me well into the future. One visit to the future was enough for me. One visit to another planet another time, was enough. Meeting the Beloved Once was enough. Having consciously connected to Source once was also enough. If I were to only have dark chocolate once, then it was worth the experience. No, perhaps make that one twice!
There is so much to experience and lay a base with, that I feel as though I lose touch with it all sometimes. Many things blow out all of my fuses of my inner 'knowing' as everything converges. See my own little worlds within this world blown right out. But this gives meaning to my soul where it would be just nonsense to another person. Where would I begin to talk if I began to have memory of the forever?
Can one begin, or can one end? Is it or isn’t it, or both, or none? High and low, in and out, up and down, male or female? When I can make them all One, then if done collectively, we will all leave this place together!!
Wake up folks, its time to make time into no time!! With two scoops of unconditional love painted in its sound!
Windstill
-- at -- http://thewindstill.blogspot.com/
